Some Walks You Take Alone

At first it’s completely okay,
You tell yourself you chose this,
Because you did,
You fought for this fervently,
And it doesn’t matter
That most of those fights
Were against yourself,
Because you still won.

While hope has staying power,
Fear doesn’t need it,
It trails behind you
No matter how far you run,
And when you’re vulnerable
It comes inside and plants a seed,
You’ll carry it with you
Not knowing until it’s gone
That it wasn’t really a part of you.

That’s when it’s the worst,
When you’re scared and alone,
And you come to a fork in the woods,
People have told you that you
Are supposed to choose
The path less travelled by,
But really you’ve read the poem,
Know that that’s not what it means,
And anyways no one
Has taken either path,
Because these were meant for you.

You don’t want to choose
Because every choice feels wrong,
And you know one has to be right,
Because teachers have always
Taught you to find the right answer,
No one ever told you that
In real life there’s no such thing,
There’s only other choices
And your own perception,
Everything is equally right
And equally wrong,
But somehow that fuels the fear.

You won’t spend your life on this path,
You’ll find other people,
Some of them friends,
Most of them not,
Lost family and new family,
People that will make you feel
Like fate was with you all along,
And maybe that’s true,
But it’s probably not,
It’s something you only believe
In memory sweetened with distance,
But right now you’re in it,
And you know life
Is there for the choosing,
You just have to let go of the fear,
Remember you chose this,
And put one foot in front of the other.

© Richela Rosales Maroto 2018

3 Comments Add yours

  1. hupsutupsu says:

    i find myself fascinated (is fascinated the right word? i’m not sure) with the idea of the choices i make, some consciously and others without thinking…and how they’re ultimately based on some fear of failure or the desire to appear unfailing…but then in those moments when i choose out of hopefulness (more and more i’m trying) and acceptance, those are really freeing. thank you for this poem, it’s lovely.

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    1. Thank you for your insightful comment! I used to be really obsessed with making the conventionally “right” choice, probably with the same ideal of appearing unfailing…which led me to making horrible choices on a personal level. That’s where the line of choices being equally right and equally wrong came from. That was something I had to accept moving forward.

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